I know I'm never going to sleep tonight if I don't empty my brain a little bit.
Today was Mother's Day. We skipped church (well I went for a Relief Society- Hello Cheesecake!) today after the long night we had with Boston and the boys.
Last night we went out with Blake and Addi to Top Golf. After we dropped them off we ran to the store for groceries and got a call from Braden that Boston was bleeding and he had fallen. We raced home, calling Pops on the way. He got there just before we did. The bleeding had mostly stopped, Nolan is pretty good in a trauma, but the boys ( Berk especially) were pretty shaken up about the whole thing. After the initial inspection we though he was ok so we sent Pops on his way. While holding him I found that his teeth had gone all the way through the skin.
So we loaded him in the car and headed to have Pops put liquid stitches on it.
Which brings it back to why we skipped church. 8am block plus no sleep equals no go.
After church we napped and made Breakfast for dinner for my Mother's Day meal. The boys and Rusty gave me a new iPhone 6. Plus each boy made me a handmade gift. Braden had a Famous Quote tag "stop fighting" - apparently I say that a lot. His teacher laughed and laughed when she read it and said "your poor mom!" Berk drew me a book including some hilarious drawings. I love sleep. 
The little boys made me hand strung necklaces at school. Boston told me "I worked very hard. I didn't give up." Brenner made sure I read the card first.
We headed to Becks to give Cindi her gift. On the way there we got a call from the realtor in Texas telling us the house we liked received an offer, and the sellers wanted to know if we would like to make an offer as well. {gulp}
We talked about stuff with Russ and Cindi before heading over to see my mom and dad and give my Mom her gifts too. After a pretty scary fall and 911 call I was glad to see her moving around better.
The boys and I made handprint kitchen towels with each of the boys hands on them for the grandmas. So that they could still help in the kitchen, even if we aren't there.
Which is a likely scenario, because we did want to put an offer on that house. So, we did.
We are moving.
I can't stop crying. And stress eating.
The last year and a half of Rusty basically splitting his time between here and Dallas has been some of the hardest times on me personally, physically, emotionally and as we weighed all the pros and cons, the biggest pro is having Rusty around for his boys (and me) everyday, not every other week. He is amazing at his job. The opportunity for growth in Dallas is infinitely more than here. It's what's best for his career, and ultimately our families quality of living. Dropping and picking up at the airport has become so frequent I joke that I am an Uber driver. The boys behavior slides down a very sharp slope when he's gone. And while our families have done a great job helping me- we really need to be a family full time.
Even if that means leaving our extended family. And all our friends.
Which is terrifying. And exciting. But mostly terrifying. We know it's right. We know it will be hard. But we know we have a huge opportunity for growth as a little family unit.
So please, keep us in your prayers. Pray our house here sells, pray my boys will adjust ok, pray they will find friends. Pray there will be enough Dr Pepper at Circle K to get me through packing this home that we have loved for 12 years. Pray I will be able to stop crying so I can get all the crap done I have to!!
Flower Mound, Texas - I hope you are ready for the Becks, because we are coming at ya in August.
And now, I have some boxes to fill and some stress eating to do.
